It's funny how you view yourself, how others view you, and how you think others view you can be so radically different. Joe was at the house. He looked at a Zelda manga on the table and said "What's that?" Cue 3 seconds of charged judgmental disbelieving silence. J, in his usual condescending way, says it's a manga. Joe defense is: "Guys, I'm Asian, but I'm not really Asian. " The things is, that's not why he got the dirty LOOK. It's because any of us could identify that backwards cover because manga has been a normal part of life since The Pokemon Epidemic of '97.
A new coworker of mine told me she sees me as this sweet innocent person that never does anything wrong. She imagines me going home at night, reading a book, falling peacefully to sleep, and then waking up in the morning to my parents bringing me orange juice and scrambled eggs. I'm pretty sure she was only half joking. I asked one of my best friends about her initial impression of me. She said I was nice but didn't seem innocent. I was quiet, but not in an awkward way...It was like I KNEW things.This comes as a complete surprise to me. I'm the definition of AWKWARD, I feel like everyone can feel my discomfort. I have no idea how I ever played it off. This is my life:
Which one is truer? The way you see yourself, or the way others see you?
Monday, May 30, 2011
Sunday, May 15, 2011
Almost On time or Too Late
"When I'm old, just before I die, I want to gather my entire family around and say to each of them, in a British accent, “You were brilliant.” as sincerely as possible. And anyone who doesn't get the Doctor Who reference will be written out of my will."- T. Eating Stars
When I die I want to be able to say: "I regret Nothing." But I can't cross that off my list because I regret a lot of things. My biggest regret is being late. (insert off color colored joke here) There are bands that I only started to love recently who I can't see in concert because they don't tour- Noisettes, Gossip; lead singer has new group- Rilo Kiley; or they're too poor- The Carps. It's disappointing and shows how important it is to actively search for things to get them on time. I learned this lesson HARD. For 12 long distressful hours I thought I was too late to pay my student loan down enough to qualify for more aid. I was so distraught I cleaned my room, and looking through old papers I saw that I had a lot of chances. I had opportunities to delay, to defer, to forbear, and I avoided notices hoping they would go away instead of just dealing with them. Once I finally started paying and dealing with things I had no more chances. So basically deal with things immediately, don't wait, and actively search for ways to get to YES! (Hey Ziggy).
When I die I want to be able to say: "I regret Nothing." But I can't cross that off my list because I regret a lot of things. My biggest regret is being late. (insert off color colored joke here) There are bands that I only started to love recently who I can't see in concert because they don't tour- Noisettes, Gossip; lead singer has new group- Rilo Kiley; or they're too poor- The Carps. It's disappointing and shows how important it is to actively search for things to get them on time. I learned this lesson HARD. For 12 long distressful hours I thought I was too late to pay my student loan down enough to qualify for more aid. I was so distraught I cleaned my room, and looking through old papers I saw that I had a lot of chances. I had opportunities to delay, to defer, to forbear, and I avoided notices hoping they would go away instead of just dealing with them. Once I finally started paying and dealing with things I had no more chances. So basically deal with things immediately, don't wait, and actively search for ways to get to YES! (Hey Ziggy).
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